[He remembers drinking until Harold needed him and then getting on a plane after, and he can't imagine doing that anymore. He can't imagine anything that would drive him from Harold's side now.
He tries to process what Harold is saying, tries to understand, but his head is swimming and he hurts all over, and the whole point of this exercise was to stop thinking.
It takes a bit too long, but he manages to do a pretty good job of schooling his face into blankness, get his voice under control. ]
I'm fine. You should go.
[ That's the last thing he wants, he wants Harold to hold his hand forever, wants to go back to the library with him, wants to make him breakfast and lunch and dinner, wants to listen to him at his keyboard. But that's not what Harold wants, and that's all John has to give him. ]
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He tries to process what Harold is saying, tries to understand, but his head is swimming and he hurts all over, and the whole point of this exercise was to stop thinking.
It takes a bit too long, but he manages to do a pretty good job of schooling his face into blankness, get his voice under control. ]
I'm fine. You should go.
[ That's the last thing he wants, he wants Harold to hold his hand forever, wants to go back to the library with him, wants to make him breakfast and lunch and dinner, wants to listen to him at his keyboard. But that's not what Harold wants, and that's all John has to give him. ]